THE LONGING DESIRE

WHEN I WAS 12 YEARS OLD,IN THE RED CROSS
AND NATIVITY PLAY AT THE SOUTHWICK BARN THEATRE STILL GOING NOW.I WAS THE RAGGED CHILD AND I CAME FROM A BIG FAMILY,
WITH NOTHING, SO NOT TOO HAPPY. SOMEONE WAS ILL SO I WAS ASKED
TO TAKE THE PART OF THE KING IN COSTUME,AND CARRYING
INCENSE.HEAVY MAKEUP USED. I LOVED BALLET SWAN LAKE,AND TUTUS .WE COULND’T AFFORD LESSONS.ROCK N’ ROLL I REMEMBER,THE FULL FLOUNCE DRESSES.
I LOVE VICTORIAN AND REGENCY TIMES AND STYLES
AND COSTUMES.. NOW AN ADULT AND PENSIONER
COLLECTED BOOKS,PICTURES OF THAT ERA,I LOVED ,
I’VE BOUGHT FANS,AND MASKS,AND OUR LOVELY DAUGHTER
BOUGHT ME A PARASOL ,LONG GLOVES AND BAGS , WOW
AND NOW I’M OLDER BUT NO WISER, I GO SOMETIMES
TO 1ST BASE WRITING GROUP AND JOINED GROUP,SONGS AND DANCE
AND DAUGHTER LENT ME A BEAUTIFUL LONG
PINK DREES SCOOPED OUT NECK LINE AND PUFF SLEEVES
FOR AS LONG AS I NEED.WORN ONCE TO SHELTER HOMES SINGING, BUT TOO MUCH TO WALK AND CHANGE IN.AND FRIEND TOOK PHOTO OF ME
IN IT AS I WAS IN ST.ANNES WELL PARK,BEFORE MY HAIR WAS GREY NOW. I FELL ASLEEP DAY DREAMING AS I ALREADY BOUGHT A BLONDE WIG WITH RINGLETS, ALSO SOME SPARKLY SLIPPERS FROM MASQUERADE SHOP BRIGHTON.

I DREAMT OUR DAUGHTER RANG THE BELL AND SHE HELD OUT HER
HAND A TICKET FOR THE GRAND BALL .I’LL GO AS MADAME POMPOUDOR
THEN COULD WEAR EVERYTHING I HAVE.
MY WISH IS TO WEAR IT ALL AND BE PHOTOGRAPHED OUTSIDE
ROYAL PAVILION BRIGHTON

picture curtesy of freefotos.com

AS MOTHERS ADOPTED AUNT OR GT.AUNT
MISS.CROKER ETC WAS.
KISSED ON THE HAND BY PRINCE REGENT KNOWN AS PRINNY.
AND AS BECOMING MORE AWARE SPIRITUALLY, AT ST. PATRICKS CHURCH HOVE. HE FOUND PICTURE IN BRIC A BRAC SHOP MY RAY BOUGHT,
ONE DAY WE LIKE GOING FLEA MARKET,AND THERE RAY SAW IN A BOX OF PRINTS AND THERE SHE WAS £1.5O. SO I WORKED HER ON A RUG
I NO LONGER HAVE. I GAVE TO MY RELATION . THE YORKSHIRE RUG CO,
ARTIST PUT IT ON. .I ALSO FOUND THE CIGARETTE CARD SHE WAS ON
AS BEAUTY, I HAD AN UMBRELLA DONE, THE SHOP CALLED "JUMP THE GUN" BRIGHTON DID AND T.SHIRT LOVELY WITH HER ON
BUT A TERRIFIC WIND ONE DAY BLEW IT INSIDE OUT AND IT BROKE.
WHAT A TWIST OUR DAUGHTER GOT MARRIED 2OO2
REGISTRY,THE ROYAL PAVILION BRIGHTON.

WE KEPT SEEING HER LOOK ALIKE ON T.V. RAY WOULD JOKE,IN UPSTAIRS AND DOWNSTAIRS OVER THE MANTLEPIECE I .WROTE TO ITV.
COULD BE MUMS ADOPTED AUNT WOW AND GAVE US AN ADDRESS
LONDON WENT IN AND THERE SHE WAS A LARGE PICTURE ON
FLOOR THE PICTURE WAS USED AS BACKGROUND IN " BEAU GESTE" ,AND "YES PRIME MINISTER" AND ALSO UPSTAIRS AND DOWNSTAIRS I LOVED TO READ. AND ON THE COVER BOOK